The silent Treatment

Ugh I dont know if everyone else hates it as much as I do but, argh hit me fucking yelling at me do something but dont ignore me. Cant you fucking see that, THAT hurts me more...That there is REALLY nothing you want to say to me? FUCK! I dont get you! You tell me all the time to not bottle up my feelings but then you dont want to even solve a fight with me? YOU can hold it all in but when I do it Im the bad guy? You say you dont like to make me cry but you seem to do it an awful lot. Anyway ugh I dont want to think about this anymore.

Im sitting here right now listening to music and just thinking about all the things that have made me cry lately...And I dont really cry that much. I dont Its not something I like doing...especially when people are watching because I hate to be asked "Whats wrong?" And then I feel like crying harder and telling that person, but really its not a big deal. I just make all these small things huuge things and I blow up. Its stupid anyway...Its stupid that you got mad for something so ridiculous. I love you and fuck if you cant see that now then will you ever? I dont know...Im sick of fighting with you over such stupid shit.

Karlie