Lesbians...

This week I have spent alot of time with Wend and Chris. And I normally blow them off just because I dont like to spend time with people, and I think that should be fine. But Apparently its not, so I have made the effort, and It just seems like alot of bullshit. I don't really enjoy going out anymore...


Man I miss Tyler

Karlie

Drink the Kool-aid!

I may not be thin, but I am beautiful. Tonight Karl told me that to be pretty you have to be thin. People like this along with the media, are why so many girls around this world hate themselves. Or the reason so many girls have body issues. I may not be a size 6 or whatever is considered thin these days but I know I'm beautiful, and the only time I EVER doubt myself is when people make stupid remarks like he did tonight. I have great hair nice eyes, and killer boobs. I also have a belly but I dont care I emphasize the good things about myself, and I forget about the rest.
I'm not saying I don't want to lose weight or I think that I couldnt be healthier because the fact is I really could be, but I'm not going to agonize and break my back over it. In fact I even work out :O, I also try to eat smaller portions and healthier at least since I have moved back home. I grew up in a home where I was made to feel bad about my size, and I didnt have very high self-esteem, but I realized as I got older that you can't rely on other people to make you feel good about yourself. But tonight I let him get to me.
I guess all I really wanted to say is you shouldnt ever let anyone make you feel like you aren't beautiful, because as jessie put it, Beauty isn't about size. I hope that some other person reads this and understands how I felt tonight. I also want to let that person know that regardless of what anyone else says, you do have good qualities its not about fat or thin or anything else. Love yourself and then love others.

Karlie

Drunk

OK as usual I have something to bitch about. Last night around Im gonna say fivish just because I really don't know :S. Karll texted me and asked if I would be willing to go over to his house to watch a movie, because he isnt really comfortable at other peoples. Well I said thats fine because it really doesn't bother me at all where I watch a movie as long as Im getting my movie on Well instead of him coming to get me he sends Dman, which again doesn't bother me, but with Dman came Tart. Im talking annoying lying to be cool bitch. Everything I said bullshit or not she had already heard it. I even at one point told her that Dman was my cousin, and her response was "I've known that for a long time!." What the fuck ever you couldn't know because ITS NOT FUCKING TRUE YOU STUPID LITTLE BITCH!!!! Well after that we go to wal-mart and there is this little gay guy that has the super hots for Dman and hes like begging Dman to go have dinner with him at the J when he gets off, and D agrees because you know I think he really may be Bi. He says hes all about the pussy but I think those hickeys could be from dudes. Well while they are gone we finish the movie and then the remaining two hours I am sitting there watching Karl and his cousin play Halo 3. Oh buddy! Well Im getting bored and Tart is being stupid texting me saying Hi and shit *rolls eyes* Then when they come back they decide to watch the Hills Have Eyes 2, and if you know me you know that I dont do horror. It gives me nightmares and I dont like it! I explain this to them, and then throughout the movie they proceed to poke me and scare me. Well after the movie as I predicted I cant sleep. So I beg Karl to stay up there till I fall asleep, well he plays me some music videos, and then he puts on cartoons and goes downstairs. I didnt fall asleep till like almost 4 ugh! Then I had to wake up when Tart and Dman went to school which was like 7 am.

This morning however went really well I went back to bed and slept till like 11. Then Aunt C Uncle F and I went to Walmart and bought presents. Then I learned how to wrap properly... Aunt C thought it was weird that I never had before :S. And I guess it is If you have NORMAL parents Lol. Well I guess I had better go.


Karlie :D

Stoner

As always I would like to start with the venom. Last night Kyle blew me off. I was slightly annoyed but was like oh well maybe he has an excuse. I saw him at work tonight and he told me he forgot. Now maybe I'm just crazy but if you really like being around someone you don't "forget."

Anyways, tomorrow is Liz's Birthday her 21st. She was planning on being drunk by noon and then going to Utah with her Dick Boyfriend (D.B.) and his friend Mark. Well she was all excited about this until D.B. called and said he lost his I.D. Which means no Utah for Liz on her 21st. And I know what you're thinking "Why can't she just get drunk in town?" Because this town is small and too much drama occures. She probably will end up getting entirely wasted, but in not where she wanted to be which means she will be negative the whole night :(

Well tonight was a really slow night I was actually asleep till I dont know about 1100ish when everyone decided that THAT was the moment to text me. So here I am playing scrabble on the net with my aunts and typing a blog.

Well that's it tonight, I'm going to try and focus on this game.

Karlie

Meh

Well I am back in Evanston now, and I feel just like I did when I first moved to Idaho. I don't know anyone, and I dont really leave the house that much unless its to work. I feel slightly annoyed half the time at everyone who claims to have been there from the start.

I saw an old friend at Wal-Mart, and when I say old I mean from my middle school days. She married this guy that I dated when I worked at Taco-Time and was addicted to meth. And after we stopped talking they started dating. Now they are both complete burn-outs that I can't stand to talk to. She one of those ones who has claimed to have been there for me since the beginning and it still annoys me because when I actually did need someone, he told her she couldn't see me or be my friend. Well maybe it's just me but if ANYONE tried to tell me who I could or could not be friends with I would drop their ass. No one controls me. But I guess we arent the same person and that's fine I just wish she didn't pretend we were tight I guess.

Anyways aside from the venom in my life I do have one friend who remains constant my sweet Rebecca. I don't think we have ever had a serious fight. Last night we went to a thing called a slumber party... if you don't know what that is google it. It was really fun... The only thing I have really done for awhile since Mike died. I work only semi part time so I mean its not the fact that I have to work alot thatI dont do things that are fun. I just don't feel like getting out of bed sometimes.

Anyways I have to go get ready to hang out with Kyle for the first time in forever.

I will write some more later after I get back or tomorrow... I havent decided yet.