Well I made it to Arizona...After being three minutes late for my flight and having to reschedule for this morning. Hahaha...Well its fucking a beautiful here!! So warm...Well really hot. It's amazing! I met caleb mine and patricks roommate...haha yeah a roommate in a astudio apt how funny eh? he doesnt seem to like me much but thats ok I will grow on him. It happens with everyone that doesnt like me at first. Patrick and Caleb want to hook me up with Chris AKA Bean town...lol we shall see.
I dont know why i was so nervous about the plane ride. It really wasnt that bad. I mean hells yeah it was scary but i mean airplanes are scary so meh whatever. I want to do something other than sit on the comp all day :@ maybe i will check the apt grounds out haha. that could be fun or maybe i can convince caleb to go swimming with me!!! whoop... you know whats cool? The fact that i live somewhere where it gets warm enough to swim bhahaha.
Welp im off love you all!! More next week!
Karlie
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Arizona here I come!
Well, a lot of things have happened lately. I fought with Aunt Cheryl and I no longer live with her. Well I moved back into my parents house and my dad has helped me make plans to go to Arizona where my brother Pat lives. I don't know whether I am excited or scared! I have never ridden on an airplane I think that is what is scaring me the most. I mean WTF! Seriously thousands of lbs of metal flying through the air...seriously? Whatever lol...I know it will be good for me. I mean really what do I have going for me here? I have a shitty dead end job, a lot of friends who get fucked up all the time. Im over the party scene I really am...And Im not even 21 yet lol.
Which brings me to my next thought rofl. I met this chicky Chels online like a year ago...and she is like my internet best friend...and I get to meet her in AZ! I am really excited about that. I dont want to give the impression that I wont miss here my home, my family, my friends. Because I really will, but I need the change :). I know it will be AWESOME...Omg it will be warm!! I really need to do laundry and decide which clothes im taking with me. But man Im going to put it off till the last minute :D. Which is something I really should NOT do, but oh well haha. Alright well Im going to go waste my time some other way :). Oh and if you really do read this haha which I dont think many do...I will start posting one once a week after I move.
Karlie <3
Which brings me to my next thought rofl. I met this chicky Chels online like a year ago...and she is like my internet best friend...and I get to meet her in AZ! I am really excited about that. I dont want to give the impression that I wont miss here my home, my family, my friends. Because I really will, but I need the change :). I know it will be AWESOME...Omg it will be warm!! I really need to do laundry and decide which clothes im taking with me. But man Im going to put it off till the last minute :D. Which is something I really should NOT do, but oh well haha. Alright well Im going to go waste my time some other way :). Oh and if you really do read this haha which I dont think many do...I will start posting one once a week after I move.
Karlie <3
Monday, March 16, 2009
The silent Treatment
Ugh I dont know if everyone else hates it as much as I do but, argh hit me fucking yelling at me do something but dont ignore me. Cant you fucking see that, THAT hurts me more...That there is REALLY nothing you want to say to me? FUCK! I dont get you! You tell me all the time to not bottle up my feelings but then you dont want to even solve a fight with me? YOU can hold it all in but when I do it Im the bad guy? You say you dont like to make me cry but you seem to do it an awful lot. Anyway ugh I dont want to think about this anymore.
Im sitting here right now listening to music and just thinking about all the things that have made me cry lately...And I dont really cry that much. I dont Its not something I like doing...especially when people are watching because I hate to be asked "Whats wrong?" And then I feel like crying harder and telling that person, but really its not a big deal. I just make all these small things huuge things and I blow up. Its stupid anyway...Its stupid that you got mad for something so ridiculous. I love you and fuck if you cant see that now then will you ever? I dont know...Im sick of fighting with you over such stupid shit.
Karlie
Im sitting here right now listening to music and just thinking about all the things that have made me cry lately...And I dont really cry that much. I dont Its not something I like doing...especially when people are watching because I hate to be asked "Whats wrong?" And then I feel like crying harder and telling that person, but really its not a big deal. I just make all these small things huuge things and I blow up. Its stupid anyway...Its stupid that you got mad for something so ridiculous. I love you and fuck if you cant see that now then will you ever? I dont know...Im sick of fighting with you over such stupid shit.
Karlie
Friday, January 9, 2009
I remembered!!
Everyone and their dog is mad at me lately... Wend and Chris, K-town, and Liz. I don't know how I get myself into such messes...I'm becoming quite the hermit.
Pee and Materials :S
So it has been a minute since I last wrote, and I apologize for that.
Tonight was a really odd night! I saw a random guy peeing in the street. We had been really busy at work, and then when it slowed I went outside to smoke, and this guy said something I really couldn't understand so I sort of turned around and looked in the window to make sure they weren't getting busy inside and I turn around and this guy is facing me and peeing! I was shocked! If he had turned the other way he would have been facing the street so I suppose I understand, but why couldn't he have waited until he got home? What a freak.
I had other things on my mind but I don't remember... If I eventually do I will let you know ;).
Karlie
Tonight was a really odd night! I saw a random guy peeing in the street. We had been really busy at work, and then when it slowed I went outside to smoke, and this guy said something I really couldn't understand so I sort of turned around and looked in the window to make sure they weren't getting busy inside and I turn around and this guy is facing me and peeing! I was shocked! If he had turned the other way he would have been facing the street so I suppose I understand, but why couldn't he have waited until he got home? What a freak.
I had other things on my mind but I don't remember... If I eventually do I will let you know ;).
Karlie
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Lesbians...
This week I have spent alot of time with Wend and Chris. And I normally blow them off just because I dont like to spend time with people, and I think that should be fine. But Apparently its not, so I have made the effort, and It just seems like alot of bullshit. I don't really enjoy going out anymore...
Man I miss Tyler
Karlie
Man I miss Tyler
Karlie
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Drink the Kool-aid!
I may not be thin, but I am beautiful. Tonight Karl told me that to be pretty you have to be thin. People like this along with the media, are why so many girls around this world hate themselves. Or the reason so many girls have body issues. I may not be a size 6 or whatever is considered thin these days but I know I'm beautiful, and the only time I EVER doubt myself is when people make stupid remarks like he did tonight. I have great hair nice eyes, and killer boobs. I also have a belly but I dont care I emphasize the good things about myself, and I forget about the rest.
I'm not saying I don't want to lose weight or I think that I couldnt be healthier because the fact is I really could be, but I'm not going to agonize and break my back over it. In fact I even work out :O, I also try to eat smaller portions and healthier at least since I have moved back home. I grew up in a home where I was made to feel bad about my size, and I didnt have very high self-esteem, but I realized as I got older that you can't rely on other people to make you feel good about yourself. But tonight I let him get to me.
I guess all I really wanted to say is you shouldnt ever let anyone make you feel like you aren't beautiful, because as jessie put it, Beauty isn't about size. I hope that some other person reads this and understands how I felt tonight. I also want to let that person know that regardless of what anyone else says, you do have good qualities its not about fat or thin or anything else. Love yourself and then love others.
Karlie
I'm not saying I don't want to lose weight or I think that I couldnt be healthier because the fact is I really could be, but I'm not going to agonize and break my back over it. In fact I even work out :O, I also try to eat smaller portions and healthier at least since I have moved back home. I grew up in a home where I was made to feel bad about my size, and I didnt have very high self-esteem, but I realized as I got older that you can't rely on other people to make you feel good about yourself. But tonight I let him get to me.
I guess all I really wanted to say is you shouldnt ever let anyone make you feel like you aren't beautiful, because as jessie put it, Beauty isn't about size. I hope that some other person reads this and understands how I felt tonight. I also want to let that person know that regardless of what anyone else says, you do have good qualities its not about fat or thin or anything else. Love yourself and then love others.
Karlie
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